Believer

Check out this great song with an AMAZING story behind it. You will be INSPIRED!!!

I want to live this live unsafe, unsure, but not afraid
What I want is to give all I got somehow
Giving up letting go of control right now

‘Cause I’m already out here, blind but I can see
I see the way You’re moving
God how I believe that

I can push back the mountains, can stand on the waves
I can see through the darkness, I’ll hold up the flame
Take me to the ocean I want to go deeper
I’m not afraid no, I’m a believer

And so I lose this life to find my way and come alive
They can try to deny what’s inside of me
But there is more, can’t ignore all the things unseen

Oh I believe I can walk on water with You, Lord

When I walk through the valley of the shadows
When I’m trapped in the middle of the battle
I will trust in You
‘Cause trouble comes, but you never let it take me
I hold fast ‘cause I know that You will save me
I will trust in You, I will trust in You

Oh here I stand all alone waiting on you, Lord
Waiting on You

 

Day 81: numb

Recently, I’ve been aware of my ability to go numb. I found a definition for the word that suits what I am going through: Emotionally unresponsive; indifferent

It is a defense mechanism. It is in place to prevent me from experiencing pain. The true emotion would seemingly be too much. So what I notice is when I feel fear and/or hurt, I quickly exchange that for  anger.  The anger of the betrayal (because it is always betrayed somehow that I feel)  allows me to feel justified in my emotions. I then shut down and go NUMB.

I don’t know if you have ever experienced anything like this. It is one of the most agonizing experiences I’ve ever had. It is emotionally draining, ironically, considering there is indifference and unresponsiveness. Being numb

is forced. What lies underneath it all is the drain.

And here is the catch. What lies beneath, it all seems straightforward. I can identify the source of the pain, but unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how you look at it), that is only the catalyst of the thing. The real thing lies much deeper beneath. It has been pushed down and kept in darkness so long, it is hard to really identify.  It is there though. I know it is. It has roots that keep it in place. At least, I think it does. It must to have such a strong hold on me.

It all seems pretty hopeless. Often times, I believe it is. Then I remember the One who came and gave His life for me. The Way, the Truth and the Life. He has done it all. He has died to set me free and set me free to be in relationship with Him and with the Father. He is the Hope of glory.

He is more than enough. And He has come to heal the brokenhearted. He has come that we would have Life and have it more abundant. He has come to show us how much the Father loves us. He has come to tell us to love Him and others above all else.

What then, of these roots? I open my heart to the One who wants to destroy these roots more than I do. I say, Father, come in and do what You need to do to free me of this.  In the mighty name of Jesus.

 

Day 80: Today IS THE DAY

On this day, I woke up, saw that it was morning, and decided to start my day.  I could have stayed in bed, with the curtains drawn tight, and spent this day doing nothing. These are choices and we all have them.  There are times that we have more freedom in our choices than at other times. We must admit though, that LIFE is filled with non-stop opportunities to choose.

Though making choices is what we do, there are many choices we could never make. EVER.  Things that happen that are completely out of our hands. We could never make it happen. EVER. Not really.

Breath. I woke up this morning with breath.  I breathe, but I cannot provide the breath……

Light. The sun was fulfilling its purpose today by  illuminating the sky and providing heat.  I can experience this. I cannot create it…..

Rotation. The earth is still on it’s axis and I am enjoying the ride.  Yet, for the life of me I cannot keep it there, doing what it does…….

I cannot tell the butterfly where to fly, or the bee where to pollinate. I cannot tell the ant what to build or the birds where to nest.

The LORD has done this and so much more as stated in Psalm 118

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
    his love endures forever.

 Let Israel say:
“His love endures forever.”
 Let the house of Aaron say:
“His love endures forever.”
 Let those who fear the Lord say:
“His love endures forever.”

 When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord;
he brought me into a spacious place.
 The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
The Lord is with me; he is my helper.
 I look in triumph on my enemies. 

It is better to take refuge in the Lord

    than to trust in humans.
 It is better to take refuge in the Lord
than to trust in princes.
 All the nations surrounded me,
but in the name of the Lord I cut them down.
 They surrounded me on every side,
but in the name of the Lord I cut them down.
 They swarmed around me like bees,
but they were consumed as quickly as burning thorns;
in the name of the Lord I cut them down.
 I was pushed back and about to fall,
    but the Lord helped me.
 The Lord is my strength and my defense[a];
he has become my salvation.

Shouts of joy and victory
    resound in the tents of the righteous:
“The Lord’s right hand has done mighty things!
     The Lord’s right hand is lifted high;
the Lord’s right hand has done mighty things!”
 I will not die but live,
    and will proclaim what the Lord has done.
 The Lord has chastened me severely,
but he has not given me over to death.
 Open for me the gates of the righteous;
I will enter and give thanks to the Lord.
 This is the gate of the Lord
through which the righteous may enter.
 I will give you thanks, for you answered me;
    you have become my salvation.

 The stone the builders rejected

    has become the cornerstone;
 the Lord has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes.
 The Lord has done it this very day;
 let us rejoice today and be glad.

 Lord, save us!
Lord, grant us success!

Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.
From the house of the Lord we bless you.
The Lord is God,
and he has made his light shine on us.
With boughs in hand, join in the festal procession
up to the horns of the altar.

 You are my God, and I will praise you;
    you are my God, and I will exalt you.

 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
    his love endures forever.

Today, I choose to:

-give thanks to the LORD

-to cry to Him in my need

-to be fearless knowing who my Protector is

-to look in triumph on my enemies

-to shout in joy and victory

-to live and not die

-to rejoice and be glad…..because the LORD has done this. He has made the day and given us victory to enjoy it and provides for our every need.

May my heart and yours choose to seek Him above all else today. May we be so aware of all that is out of our hands, but instead, safely in His. May we rejoice in that fact and praise and exalt the One who gave it all….that we may LIVE and have LIFE….ABUNDANT. In Jesus name!!!

Jars of Clay–This Road

All heavy laden acquainted with sorrow
May Christ in our marrow, carry us home
From alabaster come blessings of laughter
A fragrance of passion and joy from the truth

Grant the unbroken tears ever flowing
From hearts of contrition only for You
May sin never hold true that love never broke through
For God’s mercy holds us and we are His own

This road that we travel, may it be the straight and narrow
God give us peace and grace from You, all the day
Shelter with fire, our voices we raise still higher
God give us peace and grace from You, all the day through


Day 79: d i e t

Recently, I’ve changed my diet. I have made a decision to be careful and deliberate about what I eat. Partly because I have to and eating towards the strict end of this SCD diet is also because I want to.

Because of this decision, my lifestyle has also changed. I need to make sure I have enough of these new foods to eat available to me. I must also prepare certain things ahead of time.  Certain foods I prepare are crucial to other recipes. It has become quite an adventure.

It takes some work, some time, and some thought, but it is worth it to me. I feel better when I eat this way. It is good for me. I am also becoming more comfortable in the kitchen when I try new recipes, etc….This is becoming a really good experience.

What we eat matters. How we eat matters. When we eat matters. The truth is that we HAVE TO EAT or we will eventually DIE. What if what we EAT is KILLING US?

Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'”

What happens when we do not choose to spiritually eat from a diet full of the WORD of GOD? From the passage above, it appears that we shall not LIVE. We may be ALIVE because our physical bodies are being fed, yet do we have LIFE to the fullest?

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8

Our spirits need to be fed. “We are what we eat”. We are also what we “think”.

For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he: Eat and drink, saith he to thee; but his heart is not with thee. Proverbs 23:7

What we consume will eventually come out of us. I know if I eat sugar, my energy gets zapped. Conversely, if I eat vegetables and protein, I feel energized.

The things we think about and the words we “eat” will come out of us.

The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit. Proverbs 18:21

 With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness.  Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be.  Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring?  My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water. James 3:9-12

May we choose LIFE in all we think, say and do. May we choose not only to care for our physical needs, but also our spiritual needs as well. May we take the time to prepare to be filled with God’s Word each day, that we may have LIFE and have it more abundant. May we see the fruits of how God uses His Word in our lives and may we turn away from the bland diet of sin as we daily confess to the only One who can exchange death for life. Thank You Jesus. Fill us that our thoughts, hearts and tongues would overflow with Your Life Giving WORDS.

Day 78: new wings

Does the butterfly forget the condition of it’s former self as it sets it’s wings in flight, soaring above the ground it had once crawled upon in the most lowly state?

Doe the butterfly remember where it came from? Does it remember what it once looked like before it was arrayed with glorious color and splendor?

I think it does. I think the butterfly soars with wings of freedom and delight, knowing that it is no longer what it once was.

I think it remembers that it has been given the precious gift of new life as it emerges from a dark and confining cocoon, when all it can remember from before was the limited body it once had which could only crawl on the ground, but never soar in the air.

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

Have we forgotten the condition of our former selves prior to our experience with Jesus Christ? As I soar upon my new wings, arrayed in glorious color and splendor, I forget. I forget that I was once lost, yet now I’m found. I forget that I could not even fathom the heights of His love. I forget that all I knew before was to crawl around in a state of complacency and darkness.  I forget that I did not have the power to transform myself, but it was in His death that I have died and have new life. I forget that I needed to be made free and that I am truly free indeed.

Now there was a Pharisee, a man named Nicodemus who was a member of the Jewish ruling council.  He came to Jesus at night and said, “Rabbi, we know that you are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the signs you are doing if God were not with him.”

 Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.”

 “How can someone be born when they are old?” Nicodemus asked. “Surely they cannot enter a second time into their mother’s womb to be born!”

Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit.  Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit  gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You must be born again.’  The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” John 3: 1-8

As I forget these things, I don’t appreciate my new wings very much. I am not fascinated with the fact that I can fly and soar to great heights and perform tasks I never could have before with my limited existence. When I forget what has been done for me and the One who did it all, I become blind to the reality of who I really am. I am still arrayed with glory and splendor as this is what I have been created to be, but I start to revert back to my caterpillar ways, even though I take great pride in these wings, as though somehow I made them myself.  They are somehow not enough.

They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator–who is forever praised. Amen. Romans 1:25

May we all soar with the beautiful wings that our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ died and was raised again to give us.  May we, like the butterfly, acknowledge our utter helplessness to transform ourselves, and  may we truly appreciate the transformation as we fly from flower to flower rejoicing in what our Transformer has done.  And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. 2 Corinthians 3:18

May we confess our lowliness daily so that we may appreciate the wings our God is faithful to provide. May we trust in Him and Him alone. In Jesus’ name.

Day 77: relationships

Relationship:  The way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected. (google search)

We have many relationships. In this life, we need to connect. Even the most anti-social people are connected to someone or something somehow for some reason. We relate. We are human and humans relate.

We do not all relate in the same way.

We have choices about how we interact. I’m fascinated and somewhat overwhelmed thinking about the various ways and variables that make and shape different relationships. I think it is true what has been said of “what you put into something is what you will get out of it”.

It is actually Daniel’s experience in the lion’s den that led me to ponder relationships. Daniel chose to have  a relationship with God. A deep, intimate relationship with God. He cultivated it by spending a lot of time communicating with Him. He waited on Him and listened to what He had to say. Because of the time with God Daniel put in, what he got out of it was quite astounding. He knew Him. He was His friend and Daniel was able to trust God explicitly. Spending time with Him the way he did gave Him a deep understanding of exactly WHO he was in relationship with.

Daniel in the Den of Lions

[a]It pleased Darius to appoint 120 satraps to rule throughout the kingdom, with three administrators over them, one of whom was Daniel. The satraps were made accountable to them so that the king might not suffer loss. Now Daniel so distinguished himself among the administrators and the satraps by his exceptional qualities that the king planned to set him over the whole kingdom. At this, the administrators and the satraps tried to find grounds for charges against Daniel in his conduct of government affairs, but they were unable to do so. They could find no corruption in him, because he was trustworthy and neither corrupt nor negligent. Finally these men said, “We will never find any basis for charges against this man Daniel unless it has something to do with the law of his God.”

So these administrators and satraps went as a group to the king and said: “May King Darius live forever! The royal administrators, prefects, satraps, advisers and governors have all agreed that the king should issue an edict and enforce the decree that anyone who prays to any god or human being during the next thirty days, except to you, Your Majesty, shall be thrown into the lions’ den. Now, Your Majesty, issue the decree and put it in writing so that it cannot be altered—in accordance with the law of the Medes and Persians, which cannot be repealed.”So King Darius put the decree in writing.

10 Now when Daniel learned that the decree had been published, he went home to his upstairs room where the windows opened toward Jerusalem. Three times a day he got down on his knees and prayed, giving thanks to his God, just as he had done before. Daniel 6:1-10

Daniel did not change His relationship with God in times of trouble, instead, he consistently gave thanks to God “as he did before”. Daniel knew God. He was in a “healthy” relationship with God. He spent time with Him. He prayed and thanked Him. He knew his prayers did not fall on deaf ears. Daniel knew that his God was faithful and mighty. Daniel had faith. Not blind faith. Faith that came from a real and true intimate relationship with the One Living God.

13 Then they said to the king, “Daniel, who is one of the exiles from Judah, pays no attention to you, Your Majesty, or to the decree you put in writing. He still prays three times a day.”14 When the king heard this, he was greatly distressed; he was determined to rescue Daniel and made every effort until sundown to save him.

15 Then the men went as a group to King Darius and said to him, “Remember, Your Majesty, that according to the law of the Medes and Persians no decree or edict that the king issues can be changed.”

16 So the king gave the order, and they brought Daniel and threw him into the lions’ den. The king said to Daniel, “May your God, whom you serve continually, rescue you!”

17 A stone was brought and placed over the mouth of the den, and the king sealed it with his own signet ring and with the rings of his nobles, so that Daniel’s situation might not be changed.18 Then the king returned to his palace and spent the night without eating and without any entertainment being brought to him. And he could not sleep.

19 At the first light of dawn, the king got up and hurried to the lions’ den. 20 When he came near the den, he called to Daniel in an anguished voice, “Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to rescue you from the lions?”

21 Daniel answered, “May the king live forever! 22 My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, Your Majesty.”

23 The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.

AND WHEN DANIEL WAS LIFTED FROM THE DEN, NO WOUND WAS FOUND ON HIM, BECAUSE HE HAD TRUSTED IN HIS GOD. 

May my life and yours be filled with good, healthy relationships. May we learn to take time to cultivate all the relationships we have been given. May we make our relationship with the Maker of relationships our first priority. May we put in time that we may know Him, really know Him and find Him faithful and trustworthy as Daniel did and simply be astounded. Thank You Jesus 🙂