Day 119: shining

Today the sun was shining and all seemed right with the world.

Have you ever had days like that?

It all started with a girl’s meeting and a whole lot of love, LIFE, and laughter.

From there, it was a day filled with joy and productivity. Denying myself in tired moments and pushing past them to spend time with the man I love.

COMFORT took a backseat and I feel so much better for it.

How often have you and I sought out COMFORT over CALLING?

May my heart and yours choose LIFE. LIFE. LIFE.  May we choose what is BEST realizing it is not always the path of least resistance. May we live to be with others, especially those we love and be fully alive and fully present with them. May we grow to be more and more like YOU JESUS. Thank YOU LORD!!!!

Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.
John 15:13


Day 118: Age

Is anyone else out there hung up on their AGE? If you are reading this then surely you are still among the living and therefore have an AGE otherwise known as the amount of years lived on this earth.

What is your age?

Has your age plagued you or hindered you in some way?

You’re too young to (fill in the blank).

You’re too old to (fill in the blank).


What does it mean to you?

What does it mean to GOD?

Even to your old age and gray hairs
    I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
    I will sustain you and I will rescue you.

Isaiah 46:4

No matter our age, He never changes. May our hearts rest easy knowing that God never changes and will ALWAYS be for us and never against us as He knows us because He made us. He sustains us, carries us and rescues us. Our age never discounts us where God is concerned. May my heart and your heart receive this truth and bask in His great and unending love for us. In Jesus’ name.

Day 117: squirrels

I was outside doing my thing in the garden when a great ruckus caught my attention.


Squirrels chasing each other up and down tree trunks, over lawns, leaping from branch to branch all while squeaking and screeching as squirrels do. At one point I watched as two squirrels fell from a tree. The silent fall ended up in a great THUMP! No squirrels seemed to be dead or wounded. I checked.

It was quite a scene to witness. The squealing of squirrels socializing on a sunny Summer Saturday.  SWEET! Long live the squirrel!

May my heart and yours look for LIFE. LIFE. LIFE. today. Squirrels risking life and limb in pursuit of LIFE. LORD, You gave it all that we may have life and abundant life. May we drink from that wellspring of LIFE today as we surrender and are filled up to overflowing with the contentment of knowing we are loved and Your pursuit of us is unrelenting. In Jesus name!

Day 116: Depression and Despair

As I title this post, I realize it should be written as a letter, so here it goes.


Dear Depression and Despair,

It’s really quite sad that I am writing to either one of you. How can you even be in my mind? Why are you both here? Is it because of my diet? My thought life? I suspect both of these.

I think the real reason I’m writing to you both is because of fear. Fear that I won’t lose weight. Fear that my brother will never see TRUTH. Fear that I will never overcome the obstacles in front of me. Fear of MYSELF.  Ugh, and then you both come to me and it solidifies the FEAR. I feel HORRIBLE and HOPELESS.

That’s why you are here, isn’t it?  To make me feel this way.

So now I am letting you both know, with the mustard seed of faith in the LORD JESUS CHRIST and HIS finished work on the CROSS, that I am not afraid. Well, I am afraid, but God commands me not to be. So in His Word I take my stance.

But WHY? WHY shouldn’t I be afraid. The feelings and circumstances are frightening. And you know that, don’t you. Of course you also probably know that these things that I fear have not happened and may not EVER happen. And yet, you know that I want to hide out under the covers and there you are waiting for me until I am worried and stressed beyond measure.  Am I using you or are you using me???

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10

I want you to both know that I am going to walk away, no, run away from you and into the arms of my SAVIOR and cling to HIS Promises.

Jesus is FOR me. Jesus DIED for me. Jesus LIVES in me. Jesus LOVES me despite myself!

He get’s it. He understands.

Why would I spend my time with the two of you when I could be spending my time with JESUS?

Depression and Despair, I am leaving you. You have been with me long enough. It is time for me to let go and trust someone other than myself. It is time to stop believing that you will take care of me. It is time to stop being ruled by fear and instead to be ruled by LOVE.

Good bye.


The Long Island Yak