Day 63: forgive me

Have you ever had to apologize to someone because you thought they had plotted, planned and schemed against you, when in reality, this simply wasn’t true?

I had to do that today, with God.

Today I realized that I’ve been so wrong about Him. God loves me and cares about every detail of my life. He has never left me for a moment and He has good plans for me. For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Because of my lack of faith and understanding, I had looked to my circumstances and compared them to others. I’ve been disappointed, discouraged, angry, covetous, disheartened, depressed; you name it…..anything but grateful and secure.

How could you? Why me? Why them? How come? WHEN???

Oh forgive me Father.

Thank You! You are for me! Your plans are perfect! Your ways are not mine! Your timing is beautiful! You know me better than I know myself! You made me!

“Ho! Every one who thirsts, come to the waters;
And you who have no money come, buy and eat.
Come, buy wine and milk
Without money and without cost.
“Why do you spend money for what is not bread,
And your wages for what does not satisfy?
Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good,
And delight yourself in abundance.
“Incline your ear and come to Me.
Listen, that you may live;
And I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
According to the faithful mercies shown to David.
“Behold, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
A leader and commander for the peoples.
“Behold, you will call a nation you do not know,
And a nation which knows you not will run to you,
Because of the Lord your God, even the Holy One of Israel;
For He has glorified you.”

Seek the Lord while He may be found;
Call upon Him while He is near.
Let the wicked forsake his way
And the unrighteous man his thoughts;
And let him return to the Lord,
And He will have compassion on him,
And to our God,

For He will abundantly pardon.
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways
And My thoughts than your thoughts.
10 “For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven,
And do not return there without watering the earth
And making it bear and sprout,
And furnishing seed to the sower and bread to the eater;
11 So will My word be which goes forth from My mouth;
It will not return to Me empty,
Without accomplishing what I desire,
And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.
12 “For you will go out with joy
And be led forth with peace;
The mountains and the hills will break forth into shouts of joy before you,
And all the trees of the field will clap their hands.
13 “Instead of the thorn bush the cypress will come up,
And instead of the nettle the myrtle will come up,
And it will be a memorial to the Lord,
For an everlasting sign which will not be cut off.”

Isaiah 55:1-13


Day 35: f e a r AND t r e m b l i n g

What are you faced with today? What have the last few days been like for you? For me,  a whirlwind of emotions and challenges have lifted my feet off the ground.  Tossed and turned by the winds of confusion, doubt, judgement, un-forgiveness, guilt, shame and a host of other debilitating issues, fear settles in.  A crash landing is imminent!

Have you ever been in a place where you were sure you were about to crash and burn?

I brace myself for the fall. I am terrified. I do NOT want to go out like this. No. Surely there must be way to land GRACE-fully. A way to grab hold of a LIFE-line. It’s hard to see with such strong winds gusting about. My own strength kicks in, but it is unable to sustain me. It is too weak. It fails. I’m a goner as the last deadly gust is about to throw me down hard….WOOSH! Another wind lifts me up, holds me safe and close, and reminds me that I am terribly loved. There is a great and sorrowful exchange of my stuff for His before He sets me down again on solid ground. Fully loved. Completely forgiven. Totally accepted. NEW.

God is our refuge and strength,
    an EVER-PRESENT help in trouble.  Psalm 46:1

May your heart and mine grab on to the Hand of the only One who can save us. May we CRY OUT to Jesus in the midst of every storm. May we repent for the sin in our hearts as we examine them again and again. May we receive the love and forgiveness that Jesus freely offers.